“So the two forces were at work here as everywhere, the inherent will to enjoy, and the circumstantial will against enjoyment.” - Thomas Hardy

Monday, 28 March 2022

My Father


It is like blood running through my veins
The feeling
Yes, the feeling
Of seeing
Him
Everyday in everything
My father
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Today, he is everywhere
In all that I do
In all that I want to do
He will be too
In all that I will ever do
My father
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He left too soon
Probably went to the moon
And sees us from there,
With his doting gaze
Always clear, never a maze
My father
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Never thought my life could move an inch
Not knowing where you were
Can only surmise
That you rise
In a place better
My father
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Where you smile your smile
All day long and in the night
That smile which pushes me
Through and through… like a soaring kite
To be someone only a few know
My father
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I may look fine… look normal
Carrying my load
Managing it best I can
I know I try…
But only I am aware
In the heart of my heart
Of the void only you can fill
My father
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I cry my cry
For no-one to see
And bolden my soul
With what you taught me
Then I walk my walk
To fill my store
As you would say
“Against the rainy day”
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